Anonymous: I'm not sure why, but it's more comfortable and fitting to see it at night... might have to do with your blog color. Maybe if it was white or light grey I could look at it in the morningtime as well. But it's very nightlike.

I usually prefer a light background, but I find it harder to read any text with stark white staring at you the whole time. So I usually prefer having it black. But i change that sometimes. It is nightlike, I like that. 

Anonymous: You are truly amazing Cameron. What I seek when I'm messaging someone is that the person cares enough to analyze and think about my message. Although we're strangers I feel there's nothing wrong with that. We can be close yet so far apart. I find being too close to someone hurts me eventually so I think this type of relationship works the best with clingy sort of people like me.

I think it works well this way as well. I somehow find it a bit more difficult to talk to someone who I am already personal with. Especially with telling them my opinion on something… somehow being invested in someone a great deal gets in the way for me. I’m glad you feel comfortable with me.

Anonymous: I wonder Cameron, how much do you really care for us followers? These anonymous strangers who voice their opinions and thoughts to you more frequently than they actually do to people they're closer to.

I care a lot, in a way, because I’ve always felt invisible. Not that that’s a bad thing, in fact I prefer it a lot, it’s easier that way when your only wish is to float through life. I’ve said this to a couple people, but if someone takes the time to say something to me or acknowledge me, I make a point of remembering them. Both consciously and unconsciously. It really means something to me. So if someone comes to me and tells me about their day or something important or even asks me for my opinion on something, it really amplifies that feeling. I care a lot in that way.

Anonymous: it's seriously suprising how even in the midst of talking to someone, they forget you're even there, and you wonder... why do I even care to talk to this person if they don't even care that I exist. Everyone says I'll find the one person who does care, when's that though? In the next decade or so?

I don’t think anyone knows when that will be. But I think you will meet that person eventually. That doesn’t really make it any easier when people dismiss you, though. It’s a bad feeling and people can just be crappy sometimes. Sometimes you have to get through those kinds of people so you can figure out what kind of person meets your needs or what you would like in a friend. There’s not really a set person out there, so you just kind of have to feel around and see what other organic matter that we call a person fits you. I hope you can find that person who you feel does care. 

Anonymous: I find it very difficult to look at your blog, let alone read your replies, during the daytime. The best and most comfortable time to see it is late at night. Especially now with my ceiling fan on... it helps me think.

Is there a reason you can’t look at it during the day? Or do you just prefer to look at it at night when you can be alone and relaxed.

Anonymous: My friend just left.. it'd been a while since I'd seen her and this was her first time at my new place. She brought her dog too. We had a lot of fun.. goofed around, vaped, watched several youtube videos and two episodes of The Office.. I finally had her watch Avatar which I'd been wanting to happen for a while. My little brother played with her PS Vita and was engrossed with it. I had a great time. I feel content and satisfied, like when I have a full belly.

This sounds like it was nice. Mmm, like I said I think the last time you messaged me, it seems like those are the nicest moments. When you can just be alone with someone doing things that you like and relax.